Dieting Train Wreck

Still hopeful. That should be the title of my post.

Here’s the deal. I know my strengths and weaknesses. I know my triggers and safe foods. Yet I still feel powerless to stop them. It’s like I can see the problem coming down the road. Here it comes; better get ready. Yet it still has the ability to throw me into a total mess every time.
So what do I do? How do I fix this flaw?

Here’s what I know:
WW works – if I follow it. But I seem powerless to track unless it is a processed / prepackaged food, which is unhealthy and full of crap that doesn’t satisfy me. So, unless I use WW recipes that are already have points figured out, it takes too long to figure out points value with the online recipe builder (for me anyway). And it the points value end up being too high, then I have to find another recipe and start all over again.
For example, I subscribed to emeals a month ago (that’s me – always ready to try the “nextbigthingtohelpmeloseweight.” My first subscription was to the low carb option (figuring that would translate to being the lowest in points. Wrong.
Then I switched to the low fat option. Better, but they do not list the nutrition info for each recipe, so I need to go into the WW online recipe build and do it step by step. This morning, it took me 10 minutes to figure out the info for the ingredients for easy enchiladas. Because the recipes calls for generic ingredients (“one pound of extra lean ground beef”) I need to either be home to see exactly what fat percentage ground beef he bought (93/7 – good job, honey!) or assume. The same goes for all the non-vegetable ingredients, which are listed here:

6 oz box Mexican rice, cooked
7 oz package shred firesta cheese (low or reduced fat)
20 oz package burrito size tortillas
10 oz can enchilada sauce

So, by the time I enter all of the above, I can see that each enchilada is 9 points. That’s fine, except I know that I have issues with portion control and feeling full – and there is also a side salad on the menu (oh – and the recipe says it’s for 3-6 people. WTF is that?)
So, I scrap that recipe and enter a new one for soak ahead bean soup (slow cooker recipe which I love). Five minutes later I discover that that one’s 9 points, too. And that’s without the cornbread that supposed to accompany the meal. So now, it’s time to leave for work and I’ve wasted 15 minutes trying to figure out what to eat for dinner and have come up empty handed.
Which means that I’ll be starving when I get home from work (always am) and start devouring everything in sight and end up ordering pizza or fast food for the family. At which point I’ll say “screw it – I’ll start (again) tomorrow” eat a meal that 30+ points.
Rinse. repeat. Results: 15 years and no significant weight loss (5 pounds).
I need to figure this out.
More later.