Dieting Train Wreck

So, I finally reached my limit a few weeks ago. Tired of dieting and not losing weight. Tried of having to take Ambien every night to fall asleep. Tired or being tired and in a mental fog all day. Tired of taking naps when I get home from work. Tired of experiencing all of the systems of menopause (except hot flashes) but still getting my period every 29 days (I’m 53-1/2 for gosh sakes). So now that I’m working and have great medical benefits, I decided to do something about it.

First, I made an appointment with a Bariatric MD. She and I met and talked about what I’m doing right (lots) and what I’m doing wrong (some). She was quite concerned about my sleeping habits, so I am now scheduled for a sleep study for next Wednesday. It’s her guess that I have sleep apnea, which would explain the fatigue, weight gain, and a handful of other symptoms. But I’ll know more in a few weeks. I’m also going in to have blood work done (4th time in a year) and will hopefully get a prescription for Qysemia. I also met with a dietician (second time in a year) to talk about my eating habits. The one thing she said that resonated with me is to be more mindful when I eat. She suggested I check out the Center for Mindful Eating (http://www.tcme.org). I plan on doing that this weekend.

Then on Friday I went to see a menopause specialist. He took blood to check my FSH level before figuring a plan of action. He also helped by validating my frustration that I am still getting a period long after most friends my age have stopped. (“You’re way on the far end of the bell curve.” was his response.) A glutton for punishment, I asked what the age was of the oldest patent had had who was still menstruating. His response was 57. Shoot. Me, Now.

I’m contemplating a 30 day yoga challenge. I enjoy yoga but also find it frustrating when teachers don’t offer alternate poses for larger gals. But I am inspired by this video

Today’s weight (at home) 211.2

Goal: 140